In THIS Season

I recently started a social media fast so that I can focus on God. I realized that I can still share my blogs via Facebook without being on there (I had a few people ask). Tomorrow I will be starting a fast- for 7 days, from 7 am to 7 pm I will have only liquids. During these hours I will seek God and try to get answers that I know only He can answer.


I'm in a season in my life that I don't understand, that I'm ready to be out of. When in reality you can't rush a season away. Sure, we celebrate Groundhog's Day where we think if he sees his shadows we may or may not have more winter. Truth is, spring will come exactly when its supposed to. The same goes for the seasons of my life...


I keep saying I'm so ready to graduate. I'm so ready to start my career. I'm so ready to get married. I'm so ready to have my dream house. I think if I could just "get there" I'd be happy. But with all those things, obstacles will still come. Yes, I'll graduate but my learning will never cease. Yes, I'll have a real career and get paid more, but then I'll have to pay more taxes. Yes, I'll get married but then I'll go from relationship problems to married problems. Yes, I'll have my dream house but I'll also have more bills.


In the past few days I've heard God tell me to be happy in the season I am in. Don't get so caught up in these small trivial things that I miss out on living. I watched a video from Liberty University with Catherine Caine as the speaker. She said when she was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and she went under the knife her thoughts weren't about her family or Twitter followers but did she fulfill her God given purpose. She said she wanted to know that if she was going home to be with our Lord, was she taking those that were supposed to go with her?


WOW! And here I am wondering if I'll ever find my Boaz and live happily ever after. Something's wrong with that. Actually, a lot is wrong with that. I'm not afraid to die because I know where I'm going, BUT am I taking people with me? Am I doing what God placed me here to do? Am I leading people to Christ? Because ultimately that's my job! That's your job. That's OUR JOB.


As Jesus ascended into heaven He said He was coming back again. Deny Him in front of our friends and He will deny us in front of His father. You do know that the ONLY way we can get to heaven is through then son, right? Well, if you didn't, now you do. God told us to go out into the highways and hedges. Don't take that in the literal form. But what He meant was those places you don't want to go or those people you don't want to speak to are probably the ones that need to be led the most. Yes, we should fellowship with our brothers and sisters in Christ who know God because we all need a spiritual uplift sometimes but that doesn't mean you can't tell that coworker about how good God has been to you.


I'm only a few days into my fast and I can tell that there's a lot I need answered. I can't put a time on it because that's not how He operates. Its not LaRonnica's will, it HIS WILL. Let me say that I'm thankful for that because I know I can't do this alone. I know that I need Him.


The first question that I have asked God is to show me my purpose for this season I'm currently in. Lord, what is that I can do in this season for the greatness of God? What can I say or do in this season that will lead another to Christ? I then asked for Him to bless me in this season. In this season of singleness, student-ness, sickness, financial help-needing-ness and everything else I'm going through, Lord show me how to be happy. Let me take the back burner so that in my struggles someone who doesn't know the Lord will seek Him and try Him.